The past couple of days have been tough for me to go through. I had a disagreement with my boyfriend’s mom about our income situation. I know that working two days a week and earning $60 isn’t going to provide enough, but that doesn’t mean I’m not trying to find a job.
I’ve been applying to anything and everything since before I knew I was expecting. I’ve been trying to find a better job since I graduated college in May. I’ve been doing my best and it hurts that no one seems to see that. Everyone wants to ignore how hard I’ve been trying and just focus on the fact that I haven’t found a job.
It’s been hard not to feel like a failure during this pregnancy so far. I feel like I should have done so much more. I feel like I should have more baby items stocked up and more money saved up. It’s like everything has been piling up all at once and I’m having to deal with it all at one time. It’s been very hard to keep up with it all.
If you know someone is going through a lot of changes, then don’t feel the need to hound them and make them feel worse. Hearing his mom tell me that I HAVE to find a job before I start showing was one of the hardest things to keep silent about. I feel like she shouldn’t have said anything in the first place because it’s not her life or business.
I know and respect that she worries about her son and her grandchild but I also know that I’m doing all I can do and will provide the best life for my child. I’m not going to make this seem like a hissy-fit, but I will say that people need to take a step back sometimes and second guess if their opinion is really needed. Just because you may think someone needs to hear something, if they haven’t expressed concern to you, then please don’t tell them how to live their life.